Back to School

Being back at school is exhausting, but good for my brain. I'm finally finding a rhythm after a couple days back, but I wish I was at school for about another half hour, so I didn't feel so rushed. I don't have any planning time at school to speak of, so I'm in and out it feels like. Our class is huge, 52 kids.

Colin seems to be doing well going to the sitter, but it's hard to get things planned and together to get places on time, but we're making it.

Little chunk

Here's a couple of pics Aunt Sarah snapped today. What a chunky monkey and the second one looks to me like he's doing the wave or say Hey, ho, hey, ho.


To my amazement the little guy keeps gaining weight even though he must be one of the world's worst nursers. He always seems hungry, but he doesn't do a good job of eating. Anyway...he's over 9 pounds now, and I'm guessing well on his way to 10.

Today was my first day at work, and Sarah has been so generous to stop here on her way back to school and watch Colin for these three full in-service days.

Absolute sadness

My heart is broken. Our dear friends Josh and Deb's little boy Noah passed away yesterday. Today would have been his 1st birthday. 364 days is what they had with their sweet little boy, and now he has joined God in heaven. I can't imagine their grief. I have been crying off and on for the last 15 hours since we heard, and I can't imagine the loss they are feeling. I am amazed by their strength through all of this. It reminds me that we are helpless without God. It reminds me to be thankful for each day, and to enjoy every day with Colin even when it doesn't feel like a good day.

Noah Lauer

For those of you that read my blog that don't know the Lauers, please pray for their little boy Noah. Noah is a year old and has a type of leukodystrophy that affects his brain function. He has been in ICU for the last three weeks unable to breathe on his own. If you care to know more about their story or how to specifically pray for them check out their blog under my links.

Encouraging words

I've had so many friends call and email me with encouraging words about how hard breastfeeding has been for them, and it has been so encouraging. Each feeding is a unique challenge. Some good, some bad, but like my friend Ann said today, you just tell yourself-next time will be better or if you have a bad day--tomorrow will be better. I've been complaining a lot about my woes, but when I think about my other people's hardships, I realize I should just be thankful for Colin, and enjoy him as best I can.

Ouch

I had a sudden onset of mastitis on Wednesday night. I'm really struggling to get through it and hope I don't end up with an abscess. If I do, breastfeeding may have to end. It seems it's one thing after another.

My friend, Alisha, recommended the Happiest Baby on the Block, we checked the DVD and book out from the library, tried it, and Colin only woke up once during the night last night, and slept until 7:30 this morning (4 hours after his last feeding). I didn't sleep still b/c of my pain, and I couldn't shut off my brain, but it was amazing.